There is a reason they used to call bi-polar disorder "manic depressive disorder". The manic part, which for me is worse by far than the depression, has hit me today. I cannot think properly, I cannot rest, and I want to do stupid shit. My options are to sit here and tough it out, or go out and be impulsive. I don't like either option really. I have been in an open air prison for a couple of years, and don't like being confined anyway. The other option though is how I have gotten into trouble everytime in my life. Impulsiveness--drink--get angry--get violent--get arrested--etc...
Piss off bi-polar disorder, with your stoopid fluctuations!
Why the fuck couldn't I have been born schizotypal or something EASY to treat? Now you're wondering, what's schizotypal? Go here and become learned...http://www.mentalhealth.com/dis/p20-pe03.html
Anyway, saturday is the gathering of the nerds at Contagions' and Ktrevas' house. I am looking forward to playing with my friends, and hopefully not having to grapple with anything.
Peace, love, happiness, and serenity of purpose.
James 1:12, Blessed is the man who endures trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life which God has promised to those who love him.